SOS?

Assalamualaikum.

Headaches

or migraine, said by a friend

yeah, whatever.

I rarely get them.

Hence

guess if I'm getting one

that, can be a clear message

that I'm critical

Yet

what's wrong with me?

Things seemingly are going smooth

or so, I think

The environment's not that bad

although it's not that perfect, either

I even have this thought

that I've turned out to be

extra annoying

as well as extra annoyed easily

than I used to be

ever since I enrolled here. 

I wonder why.

Am I stopping myself from being me

till I'm reprogrammed 

without me being conscious about it?

Am I enduring too much of it

till it's too hard for me to break down

yet it's too tough for me to vomit it out?

Haih. 

One sure thing -

can't hold myself

from not having any benefactor

anymore.

This environment somehow rather

exhibits desperation

and it tries to swallow everyone into it

including me

and I'm consumed by it

day by day. 

Oh. I need help

really missed those moment

when the only relationship term

that exists

is "FRIENDS".

Been ignoring this problem

for a couple of weeks

nearly gets me "cooked"

Can't blame myself.

Gotta some lessons to revise

some notes to cover

some tutorials to be done

some socializing processes to be handled

etc etc

Didn't even have that time

to check out & keep up with the others

outside the college

nor even update anything here. Sorry.

All these shit

is making me depressed

and feels nothing.

Yes, I'm smiling

but I'm dying

trying not to drag my feet

through this bloody street

called life.

Can't even drop a tear

to relieve this one out.

Gosh

Hate my hormones.

Till then,

sayonara.

P/S: I need a R & R station.
Oh, maybe I should go to KLCC
and try flying off it
just like Dr Cheng had always said
in his lectures :/