To Those People I Called Friends.

Assalamualaikum. 

There are times 

that I tend to be  

annoying 

selfish 

impatient 

speaks harshly 

inconsiderate 

backstabber 

doing withdrawal and isolation 

and for that 

I apologize 

as I fail to do good 

to this friendship. 

The Relief Moment & The Assignment.

Assalamualaikum. 

Currently  

I'm in the "relief moment" 

where 

there are 

some time 

for me to sit back 

and relax

and being able 

to write this.
Just finished 

doing Digital E Principles 

and Anatomy and Physiology assignments 

well, they're much pain in the ass.
Can't breathe much a few days ago 

thanks to them 

then again 

it's me to blame too 

because when the deadline 

is really near 

then only I'm starting to do it =/ 

Whatever it is 

it's great to know that 

I can actually have some space 

to breathe 

by now 

and I'm grateful for that. :)

I'll Forgive You, Otto-san.

Assalamualaikum.
To my paternal parent
I don't care 

if you're not reading this
anyway
You may have not 

been doing good 

neither as man 

nor as a father. 

You disregard my mum. 

You jeopardize things  

without you even knowing.
You're the one to blame 

for bringing all the sufferings 

we've been into.
Even now 

you're making us puzzled 

of our own lives 

and our own future
with your current condition. 

Not my pic.

Escaping? Hell No.

Assalamualaikum. 

It's not like
I'm running away.
It's not like
I'm trying to escape
It's not like
I'm prioritizing anything else more.
It's not like
I'm washing my hands off
these responsibilities.

How do I escape?
The labyrinth's too deep
and I've gone too far.
P/S: Not my pic. 

Sometimes, We ought to Think Things.

Assalamualaikum. 
Sometimes 
we ought 
to think 
"Should I continue this fight?" 
Sometimes 
we ought 
to think 
"Do I still have the chance 
of winning?" 
Sometimes 
we ought 
to think 
"Is this fight worth it?" 
Sometimes 
we ought 
to think 
"How much longer can we last?"