I'll Forgive You, Otto-san.

Assalamualaikum.
To my paternal parent
I don't care 

if you're not reading this
anyway
You may have not 

been doing good 

neither as man 

nor as a father. 

You disregard my mum. 

You jeopardize things  

without you even knowing.
You're the one to blame 

for bringing all the sufferings 

we've been into.
Even now 

you're making us puzzled 

of our own lives 

and our own future
with your current condition. 

Not my pic.

Yet 

thanks to you
and your mistakes 

I mature far even quicker
I'm far even humbler 

I think way even further
and that's not enough. 

I'll continue improving 

to be a better leader 

father 

husband 

person 

and a Muslim 

in a whole 

God willing.

I believe this is the legacy 

you've left upon me
Thus, I'll keep on 

putting those efforts 

of turning into 

a better man 

than you did. 

The pinnacle of evolution. 

That's what 

I'm going to pursue for.
Even though with your current condition 

do watch me from afar, father. 

Although I know 

you just don't care. Huh. 

As for the beginning 

I shall forgive you 

for what you've done to me 

to my mum 

to my siblings 

to my family 

to my life 

all these while. 

I pray that 

you'll be blessed 

and that you'll be forgiven 

for your sins 

and that He'll make things easier for you 

and for us here, too. 

Can't be helped 

since whatever happens to you 

are going to affect us as well. 

With this 

I'll continue walking this path 

with a better look of life, insyaAllah. 

Hopefully I'll keep on 

getting better 

from time to time 

dan cukuplah 

umiku, saudara-saudaraku 

serta Tuhanku 

menjadi pembimbing
juga peneman 

dalam perjalanan ini. 

To all who know my father 

indirectly or directly 

do pray for him.
He's in comma 

for the third week 

in present.
Do pray for his well being 

and for his sins to be forgiven 

Nevertheless 

do pray for my family too 

my mum, my siblings 

we need to be strong 

really strong 

at this moment.
Semoga kami dapat 

menempuhi semua ini 

dengan baik 

dan sinar akan datang 

sooner or later. 

Assalamualaikum.

P/S: Guess I've just received 

my wake-up call. Thanks a bunch.