THANKS.A.LOT

Assalamualaikum.

This is just another emotional post.

I don't know 

what do I have to do anymore

to relieve the tension

that has been suppressed on me

since this morning.

Pagi pagi dah tade mood.
Bukan gambar saya.

First & foremost

to the culprit

I'm waiting for your explainations

Do be brave

and stand up 

enlighten me

instead of committing these drastic measures

which is tearing my head

and my heart apart

I'm not certain

what have I done wrong

I don't think I've forced it on you

have I?

Hell no, I guess.

Then what could be the reason?

Exam stress?

Some peer pressure 

or maybe seduction whatsoever

from a third person

who tries to take advantage?

Who knows.

If only I can read your mind

If only you can be a bit more truthful

I don't think I have to go through all these

Thanks 

for killing the tree 

before it could blossom a flower.

Thanks 

for not appreciating 

whatever you've gained.

Thanks 

for not allowing me 

to prove anything to you YET.

Last but not least, 

thank you 

for EVERYTHING.

I need my time.

Then again

I'm still waiting for your word.

Please do so

before I get hit by a lorry

or bumped into things

or get myself hurt physically

because of this head

is carried away

thinking of what's wrong.

Assalamualaikum.

P/S: The stronger the bond, the deeper the cut. But I'm not sure if you consider this bond as something strong, either.