Because I Love You.

Because I love you

I don't want to lose this fight

Because I love you

I want to protect you
yet I can't
and that makes me feels awful
for I'm barely doing anything
instead of being a good listener, though

Because I love you

I'm trying to stand still 

besides the fact that I'm breaking

Because I love you

I try not to cry 
well, it's quite easy after all
for I'm a guy & my hormones 
rarely allows me dropping tears
off this cheek

Muntah. Terburai.

Hati tak tenang.
Masa makin suntuk.
Benda banyak lagi nak kejar
Melatonin dah mula tak stabil
Oxytocin toksah cerita lah, 
memang dah lari habis
Duhh

Inevitable - Has No Choice But To Face It.

Assalamualaikum. 

The finals are approaching

has to make ends meet

yet he's not that prepared

and urgh

getting his right knee
scratched badly 
while running away 
from a flour-throwing-birthday-bash
seriously
It IS a bad idea


But he's not giving it a damn
To take a break, no
To make an excuse out of it, no
To postpone things, no
well try to do so
and whole load of shit

Less Than Three Questions? Crap

Can you contain me?

Can you keep up with my pace?

Can you predict my next step?

Can you tame my alter ego?

Can you hold me down when I'm full of energy

and cheer me up when I'm all over it?

Can you be my benefactor

or will you turn out to be my limiting factor?

Can you be tough enough 

to go through the ups & downs with me?

Can I give the greatest care of you

when everyone else seems to let you down?

Can I be the light

when the path ahead seems to darken upon thee?

Can I control myself

even if when the demon inside me tries to rage out?

Stars Tonight

Assalamualaikum.

Tonight

the skies 

are just as beautiful

Like, seriously.

The moon's shining brightly

in its crescents

the stars

are glittering all over

there's not even a cloud

being in the way

unlike the past nights

It feels like

this night's really special

I wonder why

It's Time To Get A New Calendar

and the Hijrian calendar

has changed its page

another year has passed

Thus,

 here comes

1433 Hijri.

A new year that is less regarded.

A new year that is less anticipated

somehow rather

I wonder

why is it even more thrilling

to celebrate 1 January 

instead of

to celebrate 1 Muharram.

Is it because of 

the lacking of knowledge about the Hijri year?

Is it because of the media?

Is it because of the environment?

the people around?

God knows. :/

and It Adds Up

Assalamualaikum.

Hey.

It has been quite some time

since I came here.

Didn't really notice it

till my "step sis" - pfft

gives me a hit about it.

So I'm still here at UniMAP

trying to adapt with things

yeah, new things keep on

going day by day.

The Script-Nothing

Assalamualaikum.

Just sharing.

One of the current songs in my playlist.

It doesn't relate to my life

in present

but then

The music

it suits

my feelings right now,

somehow

SOS?

Assalamualaikum.

Headaches

or migraine, said by a friend

yeah, whatever.

I rarely get them.

Hence

guess if I'm getting one

that, can be a clear message

that I'm critical

Recent Updates - UniMAP

Assalamualaikum.

It has been quite some time, huh?

Can't be helped.

Studying DOES consume

a big portion

of your time 

after all.

Nahh

it's not like this dork's studying

anyway.

Most of the time

is invested

on adapting himself,

perhaps.

Yeah, still need more time

to accept & embrace

this new environment.

Am I too slow?

You might say so.

I missed my foundy life so bad

and I turn out to be a good boy here. 

Pfft

How am I Going to Study Like This?

It's not easy 

to study sincerely.

It's not easy 

to tune back 

your intentions of studying.

Yeah. 
Can't be helped.

In most cases

one's forced to study

because of the lecturer.

Wait a sec.

Since when the lecturer's being pushy?

and the Race Has Begun.

As this brain

tries to digest

and consume

whatever being taught

during the past Circuit Theory class

As this brain

tries to control the whole body

from collapsing (as in fall asleep)

in the Computer Programming class

As this brain

tries to work faster & faster

in the attempt

to be the first one

to complete the "Pop Quiz"

back in Engineering Maths just now

Holidays are Over.

Assalamualaikum.

Oh, the days of vacation 

are sooo over.

Today's my last day 

and I'll be casting off to Perlis tomorrow

with room mate-to-be Haziq (Lagger)

well, that if UniMAP allows, God willing

kalau tak pon

boleh je lepak lepak dgn dia during weekends

main DoTA jalan jalan study sekali or whatsoever

asal jangan hilang that bond

yg dibina ketika asasi

that includes Mirul, Farhan, Aizuddin DLL

yg lain pon boleh je

especially yg duduk kat Penang ke 

harap harap diberi banyak kesempatan 

untuk turun padang mengeratkan ukhwah 

yg telah dijalin. Amin.

(harapan)

Long Story Cut Short.

Assalamualaikum.

Too much stories to tell

yet too lazy to type it on

Ilham sudah mencurah sejak beberapa hari lalu

namun kerana kemalasan diri

maka ilham tinggal ilham 

tidak dicerna tidak dihadam

menjadi lengkap.

Apa pun (ayat penukar topik)

aku baru selesai bekerja semalam.

*lega*

Sepatutnya hari ini pun kena kerja

syif petang

(Oh tidak. Bekerja pada malam raya?)

tapi pada hari Sabtu yg lalu

berikutan ketidakhadiran seorang rakan kerja

sebab mak dia hospitalized

maka aku ambil kesempatan

dgn bekerja full day in order untuk aku

tidak perlu bekerja pada malam raya. Heheh

the GazettE-PLEDGE

Assalamualaikum.

Have I shared this song here?

I don't think so.

(sambil melihat post post lama)

Okay rasanya memang takde.

Baiklah.

Sekadar ingin berkongsi.

Lagu yg aku sangat suka dengar

setiap kali aku sedih

setiap kali aku emo

hurmm.

aku memang moody je memanjang kan

tengok post post lama pon dah tau XD

kiranya lagu ni selalu gak la berkumandang 

dalam pendengaran 

ever since

I was introduced to it (the song)

by a friend of mine.

Weeeeee~

Lirik disertakan.

Font sengaja dikecilkan sebab nak save space.

Sekian.

Today Was A Fairytale.

Assalamualaikum.

Everything that happened before this

was totally a dream

a fairytale.

Probably a joke to remember

a lame one.

Thanks "dear".

I'm moving on

as you've said

it's just a play-around thingy

and it'll always be

for now.

You should be grateful

that I can easily fall in love

shook off the same feeling

and move on 

as easy

as a piece of cake

and can even stay faithful

if I wanted it to be. 

*Menggeleng-geleng*

Assalamualaikum.

Seriously

aku sentap dgn doktor tu

from the yesterday's medical checkup

Thanks for being considerate

and not to forget

polite as well as talkative

such qualities that are hard to found in some doctors

sebab depa kan busy ja memanjang 

with on-call dan lain lain

so kiranya

since you still being able to smile while 

giving a treatment

you deserve my respect. Weeee~

but then

do know that I've my own plans too

Delete delete.

It may seemingly immature

but I'm deleting those old posts

Looking at the old ones made me felt 

like

"Duhh, is this me?" 

Nampak sangat buat entry time tengah emo =.=

Tapi tak semua ya.

Get your facts right.

HAHAH

Dengan cara ini

Nampaknya aku takkan pernah dapat cecah 100 posts

Weeee

Layak ke aku buat 100 posts 

dengan post post sampah macam ini? Sobs. 

Taknak post sampah.

*terus mencari post untuk didelete*

P/S: Satu DVD orginal jauh lebih baik daripada 10 DVD cetak rompak. *tetiba*

Kerumitan Sang Pemilik Diri.

Assalamualaikum.

Aku kurang gemar bercerita pasal diri sendiri.

#fakta

Jauh di sudut hati

Diri ini berharap sangat 

wujudnya insan yg sangat peka

di luar sana

yg begitu arif

yg mampu mengesan

apakah yg berlaku

tanpa diri ini perlu berkata apa apa

lalu dia akan memaksa untuk merungkai ceritera

tanpa aku terpaksa berusaha

untuk mencari ruang

bagi memuntahkannya sendiri

kerana sememangnya 

tindakan ingin sahaja dilebihkan daripada kata kata

dan ingin sahaja dikunci mulut

selagi tiada ketemu

jauhari yg bisa mengenal manikam.

The Stronger, The Harder.

Assalamualaikum.

The higher of your strength to live,

(willpower, perseverance, patience etc etc)

the harder life will bite you 

till you dead.

Hypothesis accepted.

Done!

P/S: Nak belajar buat post pendek pulak. Weeee~

The Long Awaited Car Licence.

Assalamualaikum.

I know it could be lame to some 

and it could be normal to others

not even a matter to be bothered though

yet

I'm still going to write this.

After months of working

the moment I "graduated" from foundy

I've my hands on my own car licence.

This morning.

Praise be to Him.

The thing is

I've passed the licence

long ago

since the first semester holidays

but then

I refuse to hold it first

because I don't have some cash

to settle the payment for taking the licence.

Please, Do Assure Me.

Assalamualaikum.

Do you think only girls need to be assured

when it comes to relationship (s)?

Okay the term "relationship" here

is used generally

so it doesn't count whether one is married or not.

BTW

referring to the question just now

The answer should be

"Hell no."

Guys need it too.

Probably girls need to be assured

so that they'll be able to differentiate

between a guy & a jerk

successfully

It's the same case for guys as well

We need to be assured 

so that we are able to categorize 

a girl & a bitch

distinctively.

Unique Ramadhan.

Assalamualaikum.

Ramadhan sentiasa menjadi bulan yg istimewa.

Segala manfaat yg diperoleh

ditambah dgn kenangan ketika berpuasa

membuat diri rasa teruja

setiap kali Ramadhan menjengah kembali.

Masih segar dalam ingatan

minum air curi curi di peti sejuk

ketika umur enam tahun XD

tidak lupa juga

kenangan bertarawikh

ketika remaja

di masjid masjid

serta surau taman

berjalan jalan di bazar taman

seusai bertarawikh. Hehe

Memerhati gelagat manusia yg lalu lalang

benar benar mengasyikkan

pada tahap umur itu. 

Teringin membeli belah seperti yg lain

Namun ketika itu masih belum pegang duit sendiri :( 

It's All About the Marriage.

Assalamualaikum.

Yeah, the second post for today.

The greatest love of all

between a man & a woman

is when

they're getting married.

It's when

there's nearly no limit to anything 

lots of ways can be applied

to show off one's love to another

Nobody forbids whatever the couple's going to do

except Him.

Isn't it interesting?

You can do things together

maybe sharing the same hobby

or doing something good together

such as praying together with the husband leads the prayers

isn't it sweet enough?

THANKS.A.LOT

Assalamualaikum.

This is just another emotional post.

I don't know 

what do I have to do anymore

to relieve the tension

that has been suppressed on me

since this morning.

Pagi pagi dah tade mood.
Bukan gambar saya.

First & foremost

to the culprit

I'm waiting for your explainations

Do be brave

and stand up 

enlighten me

instead of committing these drastic measures

which is tearing my head

and my heart apart

Wordless Wednesday #5 ---> Helping Hands

Not my pic.

"We may not have all the hands

to help everybody.

Nevertheless, the least we could do

is to help others as much

as we could

within our own CAPACITY."

P/S: Masih berdendam dgn pak cik teksi. 

Mungkin disebabkan darah Melayu 

yg ada dalam diri ini 

sampai nak move on pon payah. 

Atau adakah kerana tidak cukup tidur? 

Mungkin juga :/

Sleep Deprivation Experiment.

Assalamualaikum.

At last.

A week without off days has passed.

With two off days for this week

It's the best time to sit back 

and relax

and probably do a lil bit of preparations

acquired for degree studies

this month of nine.

Accidentally

the writer may have tried

an experiment on himself

about what would happen if he gets 

inadequate sleep

The objective

is to investigate the effect of sleep deprivation

on one's physical & mental condition

Not the writer's pic #1

Wordless Wednesday #4 ---> Chained.

Not my pic.

This week's a bummer.
No off days are just as enough
yet

probably it's about the excitement 

of accepting the degree offer
thus resulting in less sleeping

for the past two days 

due to frequent Googling
and a lil bit of Facebooking XD

The Decision - UniMAP.

Assalamualaikum. 

Saya sepatutnya bersyukur

sedari awal lagi

sebab kursus yg saya peroleh ini

adalah kursus yg saya pohon

kursus yg saya mahu

kursus yg saya minat

kerana keselariannya dengan agenda saya

"untuk mempelajari 

benda yg tidak boleh dipelajari secara sendiri"

kerna andainya direnung semula

masih banyak lagi rakan yg kurang bertuah

terutamanya rakan seperjuangan di Asasi Sains

punya keputusan yg baik tetapi sayang dihampakan UPU

punya kelayakan tapi sayang 

disepak UPU ke kursus bukan idaman

apakah saya juga seorang mangsa?

Bukan.

Saya cuma ditakdirkan untuk berada di sini

kerana saya yg meminta untuk berada di sini

maka sebagai seorang lelaki

saya perlu menghabiskan kerja yg telah saya mulakan

oleh itu tiada sebab untuk saya berdolak dalih 
bermadah helah

lebih lebih lagi dalam kesuntukan masa yg menghambat ini

Menjelang Keputusan UPU & Hasilnya.

Assalamualaikum.

Usai sudah mendiamkan diri

Kini saya tampil dgn bicara berisi.
Konon.

Beberapa hari yg lalu

benar benar menyakitkan.

Hari Khamis

menjadi hari paling menyeramkan dalam hidup.

Alah.

Siapalah yg tak cuak

Esok hari tu (Jumaat 15/7/2011 yakni semalam)

nak keluar keputusan UPU kot!

Maka saya cuba menenangkan diri

dengan menonton Harry Potter

bersama Tira Azhar & rakan sekerjanya

Not my pic.